I’m not sure where you’re reading this from right now and whether you are sitting by a fire or lying somewhere in the glorious sunshine, if it’s the latter, count your blessings!
Then again, is that the right attitude? I ask myself this while I sit here at my messy workspace contemplating my day. The heater is humming away, sending out a steady stream of warmth and I am thankful for it but I’d much prefer a fire, well at least I think I would. A fire seems so very romantic, don’t you think.
It’s not the cold that’s bothering me.
It’s this season I find myself in. I’ve been trucking along so nicely for so long but from out of the blue, some wee bumps in the road have appeared and my meandering path of loveliness has become a little harder to navigate. In my mind’s eye, I can see tracks we’ve had to navigate whilst out on our camping and caravanning journeys. The difficult ones. We made it through but we had to take it slowly, very slowly. It’s a good reminder for me that seasons come and seasons go, as do those bumpy tracks. Tears have come and gone too. I don’t like that.
This winter blue feeling won’t last too long if I navigate this road right.
I remind myself it’s ok to cry.
It definitely is. It’s necessary, but I still don’t like how it makes me feel and I definitely don’t like to let others see me when I’m like this. I feel weak and not in control.
I stop here and look back over the past month, the busyness, the stresses, and I think back to the last blog post I wrote. If I’m honest with myself maybe I haven’t done what I encouraged you all to do.
“Prioritise those TO-DO LISTS!”
To be fair, there have been a few unexpected events, ones out of my control. My elderly mama had a mini-stroke a few weeks back that sent us all into a little spin. She’s home now and I’ve had to add ‘carer’ to my list. Right there and then, I should have gone to my list and sorted it better. Hindsight is a wonderful thing!
It’s actually a blessing in some ways as the family spends special time with her, building memories together, for one, singing the old hymns, encouraging our dear mama to hold on to Jesus in these last days.
Yesterday as I flipped through the hymn book with her (the one we sang from when I was a little girl) I found my most favourite song and sang it to her. She joined in the best she could.
HIS EYE IS ON THE SPARROW
What a blessing to remind me as well, that His eye is on this little sparrow right here in this little winter blue moment. This too shall pass. It always does. Maybe it’s because I took the time to pray a little more these past few days, the heaviness has lifted. You know the drill, “Cast your cares upon me, for my burden is easy and my yoke is light….” a lovely verse from the bible.
I woke today feeling stronger in my spirit.
I’m ready to look at my TO-DO LIST and maybe cross off a few more things and just spend the next few days, healing, getting stronger and simply being at rest. Oh, I do love that idea.
I hope that if you are struggling today, feeling a little of the ‘Winter Blues’, even if you’re laying in the sunshine somewhere, you’ll be encouraged to do the same and remember that, as my mama always said….
THIS TOO SHALL PASS
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