Leaning

Tonight I’m sitting here quietly pondering the events of the past week.
Pondering what to write. I want to write something, anything.
I have so much to say but I feel restrained. It’s not time yet.

But I can say this…
Tho it’s been blow after blow, we’re still standing.
Tho we’ve had knock after knock, we’re still praising.
And tho we’re staring down the face of yet another giant we’re leaning evermore closely on the arms of love and feeling safe, feeling comforted.

Love coming from everywhere and I mean everywhere.
Overwhelmed by love.
Unworthy.

And as I sit here looking at the blank page words begin to sound in my ears. It’s the tune of an old hymn.

It flows from my lips.

“Leaning, Leaning, leaning on the everlasting arms”
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So I google and find the words, wonderful words.

I picture my grandma in her white uniform standing by the old church pew with a smile straight from heaven and I sing the words with her and smile back.

“Leaning, Leaning safe and secure from all alarms
Leaning , leaning, leaning on the everlasting arms”

Uncanny how those words seem to ring comfort, heaven’s comfort and as I’m singing and being comforted I notice a verse on the screen.
I click.
I cry.

Deuteronomy 33:27
“The eternal God is your refuge and underneath are the everlasting arms: and HE shall thrust out the enemy before you and shall say; Destroy them!”

I’m taken back to that day in Malaysia, disaster day.
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Afraid, looking for God. Asking, “where are you” and on that day I hear him whisper “underneath are His everlasting arms” and HE knows “god with skin on” is coming https://cottagedreams.wordpress.com/2014/02/24/god-with-skin-on/

I hear those words all over again and they help me lean in closer.

And for the time being, I like it here.
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6 thoughts on “Leaning

  1. Dearest Steph, I feel as though we are walking in parallel lines with massive distance between us. By no means do I think my trials have been as bad as yours but I certainly have walked through some pretty deep valleys myself these past 3 weeks.

    Will give you a call for a catch up.
    Lots of love
    Vanessa xxx

  2. The Holy Spirit intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. Sometimes Steph, I believe that our appropriate response has no words … there is a place so deep within our heart that even we don’t understand, not really, but our Lord does and He sees the intent of our heart. Jesus has given us a language for our soul that goes beyond words – whether it be for sorrow, or for joy … because He is Holy. But you already know this dear sister, it’s in your music, our dancing, art, the beauty of the world around us, our babies, “all creation declares His glory” (even without words!) …. keep leaning in!

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